Energy, Ego, Shadow
Ego is usually just overdressed insecurities — Quincy Jones
I had to step away, turn off the world and shelter within my soul where spirits speak of healing. I sit here eyes heavy with tears that won’t fall, a sadness that I’m not even sure is mine. Weighed down by emotions that invade my mind with memories of loss. I am a warrior amid a battle of ego and shadow.
I’ve recently had to have a long look at my ego and its triggers which is a huge step for me on a path of healing. I’ve spent so many years living with the idea that the emotional pain I’ve lived with most of my life defined who I am. Then one day, I realized it doesn’t.
Pain only let’s me know that some part of me still needs to be healed. It is a reminder that I’m too focused on ego and not my higher self. It’s also a reminder that my shadow self still has many lessons to teach me. As I try to move forward and build relationships with others, I realize that each day I am still trying to rebuild a relationship with myself.
It’s a hard realization to face, as I learn to accept my place and step into my role as a healer, I also have to unlearn all the ideas that have been drilled into my subconscious by society, family, friends, lovers, and even myself. I look back on the moments in my life that left me crumbled in a corner begging for death to take me. Though for many it…
