I want to love you, no, no that’s not it at all, I do love you. What I want is to be able to trust you, but I don’t and you give me little reason to. These words run through my mind each time I look at him, standing there in his ever rippling muscular body. The betrayal comes flooding back no matter how he tries. The beast within me growls low, a warning rumble at the way he watches me. Weakness over comes me until she growls in anger reminding me, pulling back the trigger that will release my strength to turn my back and walk away before I attack and kill. I love you, but it has become irrelevant to my survival and my heart sinks just a little more.

@vtrego2015